Your Script

Everyone has his own script to write. His own story. What does yours say? The funny thing is that I was realizing the other day, that mine is mostly good, which is good...I guess. Dosen't really fit with the "no pain, no gain" idea. It seems as if someone has had someone dear to them die, parents divorce, abuse, alcohol, or some form of other crisis. I can't really think of anything of that sort that has happend in my life. Sure my great grandma died, but she was 87...to be expected, sort of. At age 9 I had scoliosis. No pain, though. None. Ever. God has given me a gift of a VERY high pain tolerance. I've always thought however, that if one doesn't know pain, then you can never fully understand true happiness. Likewise with any emotion, and its opposite. Most everyone I know, has, at some point battled depression, anxiety, anorexia, etc. I have not. My father died at age 25, when I was not yet 2. But I didn't know him. I can't remember a blasted thing about him. They all say that I look like him, but when I refer to my dad, I mean the man that my mom married sometime later, who adopted me. I have a wonderful bro and sis who are the best and I never really had too much sibling rivalry going on. My parents have always loved each other and have set a great example for me.

So, if I turn out to be a loser, it's obviously nothing in my past. Everything about it was amazing...

I JUST WANT A SNACK

I JUST WANT A SNACK. I don't need a triple chocolate meltdown, caramel and hazelnut bits, explode in my mounth, blast me away, toffee butter bar. I JUST WANT A SNACK.

Mi Familia

All I have to say...is that I have the freakin' best family this side of the Mississippi. My dad, well, he's pretty much my hero and knows alot about life and ...well, windows. He's just really the best. Mom, all that is kind, loving and tender. She really is the essence ofcomplete opposite narcissism. Actually, read three blogs down, about the song entitled "Tough"...that be my Mama. My sis, she is just way supah-fly. She loves to have a good time, and is really concerned about people. She is AMAZING! And my best friend forevah. Little bro, well he is just fun. We like to go and explore, pick berries, and play GIJoe. So way cool....

And, yeah, I guess they are on my mind. Because all the other things on my mind lately...are not exacly as fun. 1. Host Mom deciding that I am not the best person to have stay...to put it midly. 2. decisions decisions. 3. Friends talking about friends...playing middle man. Arg. Oh, well. GLORY to JESUS!

TWLOHA

SHE HAS KNOW SUCH GREAT PAIN; HAUNTED DREAMS AS A CHILD, THE NEAR-CONSTANT PRESENCE OF EVIL EVER SINCE. SHE HAS FELT THE TOUCH OF AWEFUL NAKED MEN, BATTLED DEPRESSION AND ADDICTION, AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. HER ARMS REMEMBER RAZOR BLADES, FIFTY SCARS THAT SPEAK OF SELF-INFLICTED WOUNDS. SIX HOURS AFTER I MEET HER, SHE IS FEELING TRAPPED, TWO GROUPS OF “FRIENDS” OFFERING OPPOSITE IDEAS. EVERYONE IS ASLEEP. THE SUN IS RISING. SHE DRINKS LONG FROM A BOTTLE OF LIQUOR, TAKES A RAZOR BLADE FROM THE TABLE AND LOCKS HERSELF IN THE BATHROOM. SHE CUTS HERSELF, USING THE BLADE TO WRITE “FUCK UP” LARGE ACROSS HER LEFT FOREARM.

STOP THE BLEEDING.
RESCUE IS POSSIBLE.
LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT.
*TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS*

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100 Life Goals

Accomplished: Listed in John Deere Yellow

Yet to do: Listed in John Deere Green

adopt and/or have a sponsored child
befriend an enemy
be in two places at once
bring gifts to an orphanage in a 3rd world country
debate a pro-choicer
do a 360 on a kneeboard
don’t have a TV ‘til kids are older
don’t get fat
don’t name kids common names
eat healthy
help a homeless person
get an ol’ car for my 1st one
get a period style dressget married outside
be on jeopardyown spurs and chaps
paraglide
go on a Caribbean cruise
go on a mission trip
skydiverock climb
surf
learn Dutch
learn Spanish
learn French
learn sigh
learn German
learn to tap-dance
learn to line dance
learn to ballroom dance
learn to sing opera
mr. Right must be approved by God and Dad
learn to snow ski
learn to water ski
own or lease a horse
ride horse on beach
see Oklahoma play
see west side story
see Annie
see fiddler on roof
see phantom
see swan lake
see Shakespeare’s best…in Ashland
star in Broadway
star in Shakespearevisit Australia
visit Austria
visit Victoria Canada
visit Nova Scotia and PEI Canada
visit Banff Canada
visit Paris
visit Frankfurt
visit Great Pyramids
visit Israel
visit Dublin
visit Florence
visit Pisa
visit Rome
visit NZ
visit 7 wonders of ancient world
visit bora bora
visit Tahiti
visit Barcelona
visit Kazakhstan
visit Bancock
visit Yellowstone
visit Crater lake
visit statue of liberty
visit mt Rushmorevisit golden gate bridge
visit Alcatraz
write and publish book
jump from bridge
go-kart…for real
be 1st on swim team
go to favourite statelearn how to tune up carlearn basic survival techniqueslive, love, thrive…
bake Christmas cookies for neighbors
climb a silo
drive the deere
write and publish poem
learn to play an instrument
ride in FRONT SEAT of cap car
learn basics of bartending
go to culinary schoolgo to theatre school
go to Bible school